Lonely Warrior

The highways have become darker, and I am all set again to go on a mission. Life has become a vicious battlefield. Everyday when I travel I don't know where the roads will take me and where I will stop, sometimes I feel that I should keep moving on and I should never stop. I always wanted to be a warrior and see the I got a chance to become a warrior, I got a chance to fight for myself, but the worst part is I have to fight with myself. Life has become so complex that I have to keep myself motivated otherwise I am dead. As the warfield is so dense I have to be alert and keep myself updated with everything whatever I come across, I have to keep walking alone. Sometimes when I get time, I manage to be with my family and at that time I feel I should leave the war and take rest, recoil myself and get ready to come back in the battlefield.

The battlefield has different levels like you have in games. You always dream of going to the next level so that you can reach the other side. Some are lucky that they already reached the next level and I am still stuck in the first level itself. You hardly get any time to rest. The war becomes more fierce and you have to keep on fighting and sometimes you feel that you don't have enough strength to fight, but you have to go on fighting coz if you stop you are dead.

I try to take out time from war and sometimes write down articles to put across my idea. I know somewhere in the back of my mind that I have to do a lot more than what I am doing right now. But the way the war has been going on, it has taken away my talent and interest to work on the things I had in my mind.

Life has so much stored in it, so many things to do, so much to learn, but I have to energize myself, keep myself motivated to keep myself on my toes to keep on working and work more and more for my family and for myself. I have to keep on fighting and work hard so that I can make my dreams come true.

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Friends : Neighbours Envy Owners Pride

Remember these words 'Neighbours Envy Owners Pride' you must have heard this while watching advertizement of Onida Tv. I thought of using this for my article on friends. A common subject and of course an easy one. Well this word friend is a very significant word and it means world or rather I can say it means everything to a major population of the world.

And being a part of the world means a lot to me. Since my childhood friends have been very important to me. When I started my school I made school friends, then when I moved to high school the group changed and as I moved to college I made some new friends. Then during my post graduation I stayed with another group of friends for two years and that was so much of fun, when we use to sit and chat for the whole night and then sleep in the morning.

Being with friends have always been fun.But it was friends who left me when I needed them most and it was friends who have hurt me the most. Still friends mean the world to me.I have been very fascinated with online friends and honestly I have made some good friends also, recently I came to know about facebook another website to know people. And I registered myself and made some new friends, to my surprise even though some people are far away they share similar tastes, they share similar ideas, they have the same dreams that we have in our place.

Sometimes even if you have some good friends you have people around you who are jealous and that too if she is a girl then you might land up making enemies, isn't that funny. Well I have been using orkut another website for social networking where honestly I found my friends with whom I can keep in touch as they are far away, such websites keep you hooked up. Well atleast it keeps me busy nowadays as I have been working on my blogs and on these social networking sites simultaneouly. Its good to know more people across the world and know more about their culture their thoughts, ideas etc. and you don't know sometimes you make great friends.

If I ask myself I have done great deal for my friends and got the same in return but always kept wondering when will I have a true friend. There have been many friends who came in different phases of my life and stayed for some time, some left and some are still there, but as they say everybody has their own personal life, friends drifted apart from me leaving me behind. I sometimes think when my friends needed me I was always there I did whatever I can in my range but when I needed my freinds they were not there for me. And later when they came back by mistake also they blamed me for the gap over the years. What an irony of life it is that how much ever you do you still get to hear for something what you were never responsible for and this happens specially when you give too much of importance to any relationship.

Music and Loneliness - Best Friends

In this world today, we come across people who find themselves lonely or try to show that they are lonely to get attention from others. For me being lonely has always been peaceful. I too belong to the community of people who love being lonely or you can say being alone. When I am alone I listen to music and I think music can be your best friend, if you are really interested in music. I have had friends who left me alone when I needed them the most, and I took to music then, I tried to get a good collection of music, tried to listen to jazz, rock, instrumental, hard rock, fusion, being in India loved to listen to ghazals and some good songs.Friends are humans who leave you as and when they want to leave you, but music stays on forever. In this material world everybody has become greedy and they use you when they want, they will make you friend, and leave you in pain. In my life I have gone through this pain again and again and the only friend who healed me was the music.

Sometime or another we will experience a time when we are alone. There is nothing wrong with being alone.Far outside your bedroom window nobody cares if you're lonely.It happens that sometimes you feel that you are different and sometimes you feel that you are so isolated that you don't feel like you fit anywhere. At that time sometimes you wish if you had somebody to talk to, a friend or a soul who can listen to you , sit and talk to you.

Life takes you through a roller coaster, it stirs you to make you strong and makes your life more tough so that you never lose, but strive to win those odd problems that come your way. My life has seen ups and down in relationships and in friendships, friends came in my life and left me for their good. Sometimes you don't even know for what reason a person came into your life, what was the purpose. It becomes worst when you are living peacefully and suddenly some old friends whom you were trying to forget comes back to your life, not to make you happy or give you happiness , but I think to make your life more worse, to give you pain, to make you sad.And always as usual music comes to your rescue, I agree that music also reminds you of your old memories but it also makes you feel good and brings a smile on your face on all those tough times when you have forgotten to smile.

Music my best friend I love you for all those times you have made me smile and for all those times you stopped me from crying. Music to me is friendship, music to me is god and music to me is life.